I have been at a loss for words for months. But as I approach the second anniversary of Bob’s passing, June 8th, I cry more often, sleep less, feel desperately lonely.
After this length of time people drift away. They assume you’re okay. Yes, I am better than I was, but I still struggle every day.
Today I was looking for the lyrics for a song I liked and I found the “official video.” It was written for the Twilight Saga, so there’s pictures of the wedding between the two main characters nestled in with the singer, Christina Perri, but it’s the song I love. The words and melody are beautiful . I began singing along. By the end of the song I was in tears.
The tears were short lived. I’m okay. But the memories and the pain never go away. You always remember. And, I believe, that you should never forget.
I consider myself lucky to have loved, and have been loved, unconditionally. I just wish it had been for a thousand years, or more.